False alarm! I typed in the title to this entry about 2 hours ago and have since forgotten what I wanted to say.

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Now playing: Digable Planets - Jettin'

Ever watch those old cartoons, well, I guess they do it in the new ones too, but I digress; Ever watch those old cartoons where a character is trying to run really fast, but are running in place (on air) before the finally take off? Yeah well, that has felt like my life for a while now. It's cool once you take off, but while your spinning your proverbial wheels in place, it's like capital wtf (WTF aka WHAT THE F---?!).
So yeah, I feel like I've been getting my Shaggy on, a la Scooby Doo, where I'm trying to get going but I'm not going anywhere really. Well(!) I feel like that moment where the character is just beginning to move forward. You know, that's the part right before the big cloud of smoke and uproarious laughter.

My hope is to really get going and make things happen. There is so much that I want to do, that I am now ready to commit to more than ever, so I just want to get going. Kind of feel inhibited, because there are some key things I need to have in place. So, pray for a brother ya'll. I'm hoping this year is colossal, no, I need this to be a colossal year, so I trust this year will be major. I'll holla soon!

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Now playing: Jill Scott - Breathe

* I typed this in my Treo this morning when I was awakened by...well, you'll get the picture. Dedicated to anyone who has or does live in an apartment, dorm or condo.

Sleep is not sacred
not with adjoining walls
differing schedules
hot water heaters
loud water pipes
poorly timed phone calls placed by strangers who dialed the wrong number
poorly timed phone calls placed by bill collectors who dialed the wrong number
poorly timed phone calls placed by bill collectors who dialed the right number, but I'm saying!
Sleep is not sacred with arguing neighbors
make up sex
squeaking beds and thumping headboards
raging hormones
early morning routines poorly masked by news shows
nor when you have just 30 minutes or less before you have to get up
or it's been 30 minutes or less since you fell asleep
or got into that good sleep
that R.E.M. sleep
sleep is not sacred when birds chirp madly before dawn arrives
don't they know it's winter?
shouldn't they be down south somewhere?
Sleep is not holy when bedsprings sing rhythmically off key accompanied by falsetto moans and staccato grunts
nothing to do but listen and critique
play Simon Cowell
remark that said tempo doesn't bode well for a strong performance
nothing to do but wait or
hope you can get back to what was sacred or
roll over and nudge her
or not
start your own orchestra
only better
either that or
wish you had someone to roll over to
while you pray to all that's holy
for sacred
and holy
sleep


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Now playing: Prince - The Everlasting Now

Uh-huh, that's two entries in one month ya'll...I'm trying to get back to this blogging thing. Anyways, nothing major to report. My goal for this week is to identify my goals for the year. That includes personal, professional, artistic, fitness, etc. Artistic goals are where it gets dicey, because I'm a dreamer, and I have lofty ambitions. I've done the Cd and book thing, in various ways...feature here, illustration or two there, self publish, release All Seasons CD (one of the dopest spoken word CD's ever!), so I'm looking beyond that. I'm thinking I need to start acting on my higher ambitions: Graphic Novels and movie scripts. I've had ideas for comics/graphic novels since I was in high school...good ideas, too. Over time they've matured and evolved...and over time, I've seen similar story lines and plots hit the big screen i.e. Solo, Constantine, just to name a couple. Character names that I developed in high school are now running rampant in Marvel and DC universes...names like Surge. Might sound corny to you, but if you read comics, not so much...maybe. Anywho, I am not going to deviate because one, my ideas are better, and two, mine are more thought out, I think. Just rambling here...my desire to draw isn't like it used to be, which is why I haven't done this yet. Also, it's a massive undertaking to write, storyboard, draw, ink, color and sell a graphic novel. Especially with no start up funds or prior experience. Well, I did illustrate Andy & Mae back in '02, but that's not as involved (and I've come a long way since then). Anyway, back to the grind.
Oh, I finally launched my business entity online, so it is now official! Check out www.emdero.com when time permits. I wanted to keep the site clean, so I didn't go for a bunch of craziness when I built it. Simply put, if you need some graphic or financial services, check me out. If you like what you see, let's make something happen.
Peace!

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Now playing: Jay-Z - Hello Brooklyn 2.0

So today is a new day, and a few days ago was a new year. I don't really know how to eulogize 2007 at this point, but I will try to think of something nice and appropriate. 2007 was beguiling, I can say that. It came in looking like promise and possibility, and proved to be anything but. It was hard, and awkward. Most everything became a setback, people said one thing and did another. Business relationships were tested and strained. Dishonesty reared its ugly face. "Friends" stopped calling when I simply wanted to hear their voice. Some asked for favors with no intentions of reciprocity (I have loved that word since Lauryn Hill's 'Ex-Factor' song).
I tried to remain humble and focus, often failing and forgetting my place. I faltered, lost sight of my goals. I was shell shocked at times, disoriented by the sometimes staccato ebb and flow of life's rhythms, I so need a rhythm to things. But there were small victories: I still gave of myself unconditionally. I did things that made me uncomfortable because I understood the bigger picture. I committed in situations I previously ran from. I drove long distances just to say I love you, if in action and nothing else. I shook off crippling and debilitating clouds of self-doubt and procrastination. I started going back to church for crying out loud.
Although I don't stand here any richer for it, I am enriched. Though I have few more material trappings than when I started 2007, I have gained so much more. This will be a big year, because it has to be...because I need it to be. I'm sure some big hardships will come to attempt to steal my joy, but I have something for that. Faith. It has been my mainstay when I had every reason to throw my hands up.
While that may not sound like much to some, it gives me every reason to believe this will be an awesome year. Because 2007 was so maddening and arduous, i believe that when I look back, it will be a defining year.
I simply hope it will mark the beginning of something beautiful.

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Now playing: The 5th L - Luv U 4 Ever